The Waiting Game

When we first booked our appointment at a fertility clinic my immediate thought was that the testing was going to be the worst part. I thought of needles and speculums and pelvic exams. What I didn't know then is that what really kills is the waiting. Lots and lots of waiting.

Wait for results.
Wait for appointments.
Wait.

Wait.


Wait.

We have 17 days until our next appointment with the doctor (but who is counting?) and I can't wait. But you know what's going to happen after that appointment?

You guessed it-- more waiting.

Wait to get insurance approval, wait to start meds, wait for egg retrieval, wait for embryo transfer, wait for the pregnancy test AND then if we are lucky, wait for labwork and ultrasounds to make sure that everything looks good.

If it doesn't work the first time, then we will wait for IVF round 2.

I keep telling myself that soon, hopefully all of this waiting will be worth it. I like to think that a year from now I'll have a healthy baby sleeping on my chest and all of this will seem like a teeny, tiny, itty blip on the radar.

I hope. Until then, we will continue to do what we are pretty good at.... wait.