On Sunday morning I had my very first injection and besides a 10 second silent freak out right before sticking the needle in, it was fine. I watched the videos from Freedom Fertility three times the night before just to make sure that I felt comfortable doing it.
Yesterday I might have had my first side effect from lupron. My parents had just left after visiting for the weekend and all of a sudden I started crying. Which turned into bawling. Of course I always miss my parents, but I can't remember the last time that I cried when they left. I sat on my couch and cried for a solid ten minutes and then on and off that afternoon. When Lenny came home I told him that I'd had an emotional afternoon and that I didn't know what the hell I was crying about. He suggested it was the meds so I started googling.
That's when I found countless forums talking about "Loopy" lupron and the "bitch juice." I read some of the comments out loud to Lenny and we couldn't stop laughing. One women mentioned how she cried for an hour after her husband told her that he didn't like the way the fish she was marinading smelled. I felt a bit better after realizing that I wasn't a complete nut.
This morning I had a nightmare that I had been giving myself the wrong amount of lupron. In my dream I knew that I was supposed to be giving 10 units and apparently I had been using the 10 ml line instead of the 10 unit line. I remember freaking out in my dream and thinking "I have to call the clinic!" After I woke up I checked my syringes to assure myself that I had been giving myself the right amount. No matter how calm you feel, you always have the thought, "AM I FREAKING DOING THIS RIGHT??" in the back of your brain. I have two more days of birth control and then I wait for my period. It's crazy that in in a week or so I might be starting stimulation medications. I still can't believe that we are IN our IVF cycle. It's surreal.
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