Today started innocently enough. I wasn't having any cramping and I was feeling pretty good. I took a break at work and when I came back to my desk and sat down, immediately I smelled cigarettes. It was so strong it was like there was an ashtray under my nose. I got up from my desk and started walking around asking my confused coworkers, "Did anyone just smoke?" One of my coworkers looked at me like I was nuts (I am) and said that she had just gotten back in from smoking.
I sat back down at my desk almost giddy. Holy crap, is this the heightened sense of smell a sign that I'm pregnant!? I must be pregnant. I sent my husband an email that said, "I'm pretty sure that one or two of these buddies stuck."
Fast forward to about 3:30PM and this roller coaster ride took a nose dive. I started getting cramps when I stood up. It only happened when I went from sitting to standing and it would last 3-5 seconds. I got these same cramps during my first IVF cycle and we know that was a BFN. My heart sank.
A few hours later, the tears came. This whole process is just so overwhelming and emotional. I want this to work SO badly and there is nothing that I can do at this point. I'm either pregnant or I'm not. Black and white.
I don't know how people do this 4, 5, 6 times... it is draining beyond words. At this point I just want to know one way or another so I can move on. My husband wants us to wait until our official test date, which is Thursday the 15th, but I don't know if I can make it until then. We go on vacation next week and while I'm excited about it, I know that it's going to be incredibly hard to be there while dealing with a failed second try.
Again, we wait.
Symptoms: cramping when going from sitting to standing, extra hungry, slightly heavy/sore breasts, tired (I took a nap when I got home from work)
Symptoms: cramping when going from sitting to standing, extra hungry, slightly heavy/sore breasts, tired (I took a nap when I got home from work)
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