Today was a perfect day.
I woke up at 7:30AM after admitting to myself that I was just too excited to sleep any longer. I let the dogs outside and stood in my kitchen. The early morning light was filtering through the window and I could tell that it was going to be a beautiful day. I stepped out on to my porch into the cool morning air and walked in the dewy grass so that I could watch the trees sway in the light breeze. I took a few photos and just let it seep in: Today is the day.
I did routine morning things. Made breakfast, brushed my teeth, fed the dogs, put my contacts in. I did un-routine things like take extra time to straighten my hair and put a little bit more makeup on. In a way I felt like I had to look my best because it was such a special day. I downloaded my meditations and some feel-good songs on to my phone to help me through the 10 day wait. I got dressed. Put on my St. Gerard medallion.Took a deep breath.
We still had some time before we had to leave for the clinic so I looked through my emails. I got the first email in a 21-day meditation challenge. The centering thought of the day was: Today I am open to the presence of miracles.
I blinked. What a perfect centering thought for today.
We stopped at the library before heading to the clinic so I could pick up the books that I had put on hold. One of the books was Journey to the Heart by Melody Beattie. I turned to today's meditation and under August 5th the title of the meditation was Respect Life and it included the sentences "take time to remember that all life is sacred" and " With all its trials, tests, worries, heartaches, and sometimes heartbreaks, life is a gift." Another tailor made message for us on this day.
After we got settled into the room, the nurse came in to check my bladder. When the door opened and my favorite nurse walked in, I smiled. Another good sign.The doctor came in a few minutes later to let us know that two blastocysts had thawed back to 100% and that we still had three left.
It all happened so fast and before we knew it, it was over. The doctor said that everything was "textbook" and that he hoped that this time ends up different than last time. We waited for 10 minutes and then I was allowed to leave.
I went home, made myself lunch and sat in the backyard while I read by books. I know that in ten days we will know if this was successful or not, but today was full of great omens so I'm feeling positive. Anything is possible but I'm going to keep my chin up.
Right now, I have two perfect bundles in me, just ready to bloom. Now we wait and keep the faith.
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